day 33

I would rather die than go to a school that I fucking hate.
fuck the system. fuck this shit. I am so done with this fucking life.

day 32

They were right. Guys can't be trusted. I honestly have given up on the idea that I will find the right guy. I've met so many idiots or people that I actually have a thing for but they end up disappearing like a magician act.

Maybe it's time to listen to my psychologist, to give myself time to love myself instead of finding someone who will love me. I thought that maybe if someone could love me as much as I love them, I could finally start to learn to love myself. tragic isn't it?  Falling for the wrong people time to time.  When I'm finally interested in a guy, I do not know if he wants to continue to talk to me or he is just using me as a toy to pass time.


here's a poem from one of my favorite poem books,
" You must enter a relationship 
             with yourself
        before anyone else."
            -ruppi kurr