I don’t know what I want in life anymore to be honest. I am
lost in my own thoughts and complicated like a tornado sweeping through the
area and destroying everything in its path. It hasn’t been an easy journey for
the past 1 month plus. The breakdowns, the emotionless nights and many other
things. I am a human who has a destructive button and one day it will explode
when the button is push.
I must thank the people who stayed and loved me
unconditionally despite the fact I’m a huge mess.
A message to myself in the future,
I hope one day the pills will stop and you will be alright. The
old Celeste who was happy and loved to be with friends. I know you prefer to be
alone and not talk to anyone, please make an effort to try even if it scares
you. I know it seems like a hard journey with many obstacles, but I want you to
know I’m forever grateful to know you tried your best to stay strong and alive despite
your inner demons calling you.
Love,
Cel
